Crawford remembered her message to her cousin,... Crawford remembered her message to her cousin, she thought
it very likely, most likely, that he would write to her at all events; it
would be most consistent with his usual kindness; and till she got
rid of this idea, till it gradually wore off, by no letters appearing in
the course of three or four days more, she was in a most restless,
anxious state
At length, a something like composure succeededSuspense must
be submitted to, and must not be allowed to wear her out, and
make her uselessTime did something, her own exertions something
more, and she resumed her attentions to Susan, and again
awakened the same interest in them
Susan was growing very fond of her, and though without any of
the early delight in books which had been so strong in Fanny, with
a disposition much less inclined to sedentary pursuits, or to information
for information’s sake, she had so strong a desire of not appearing
ignorant, as, with a good clear understanding, made her a
most attentive, profitable, thankful pupil
Fanny’s explanations and remarks were a most important addition
to every essay, or every chapter of historyWhat Fanny told her of
former times dwelt more on her mind than the pages of Goldsmith;
and she paid her sister the compliment of preferring her style to
that of any printed authorThe
chloe white early habit of reading was wanting
Their conversations, however, were not always on subjects so high
as history or moralsOthers had their hour; and of lesser matters,
none returned so often, or remained so long between them, as
Mansfield Park, a description of the people, the manners, the amusements,
the ways of Mansfield ParkSusan, who had an innate taste
for the genteel and well-appointed, was eager to hear, and Fanny
could not but indulge herself in dwelling on so beloved a theme
She hoped it was not wrong; though, after a time, Susan’s very great
admiration of everything said or done in her uncle’s house, and
earnest longing to go into Northamptonshire, seemed almost to
blame her for exciting feelings which could not be gratified
Poor Susan was very little better fitted for home than her elder
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sister; and as Fanny grew thoroughly to understand this, she began
to feel that when her own release from Portsmouth came, her happiness
would have a material drawback in leaving Susan behind
That a girl so capable of being made everything good should be left
in such hands, distressed her more and moreWere she likely to
have a home to invite her to, what a blessing it would be! And had
it been possible for her to return MrCrawford’s regard, the probability
of his being
dior rasta bag very far from objecting to such a measure would
have been the greatest increase of all her own comfortsShe thought
he was really good-tempered, and could fancy his entering into a
plan of that sort most pleasantly
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CHAPTER XLIV
SEVEN WEEKS of the two months were very nearly gone, when the
one letter, the letter from Edmund, so long expected, was put into
Fanny’s handsAs she opened, and saw its length, she prepared herself
for a minute detail of happiness and a profusion of love and
praise towards the fortunate creature who was now mistress of his
fateThese were the contents—
“My Dear Fanny,—Excuse me that I have not written before
Crawford told me that you were wishing to hear from me, but I
found it impossible to write from London, and persuaded myself
that you would understand my silenceCould I have sent a few
happy lines, they should not have been wanting, but nothing of
that nature was ever in my powerI am returned to Mansfield in a
less assured state that when I left itMy hopes are much weakerYou
are probably aware of this alreadySo very fond of you as Miss
Crawford is, it is most natural that she should tell you enough of
her own feelings to furnish a tolerable guess at mineI will not be
prevented, however, from making my own
prada black bags communicationOur
confidences in you need not clashThere is something
soothing in the idea that we have the same friend, and that
whatever unhappy differences of opinion may exist between us, we
are united in our love of youIt will be a comfort to me to tell you
how things now are, and what are my present plans, if plans I can be
said to haveI have been returned since SaturdayI was three weeks
in London, and saw her (for London) very oftenI had every attention
from the Frasers that could be reasonably expectedI dare say I
was not reasonable in carrying with me hopes of an intercourse at
all like that of MansfieldIt was her manner, however, rather than
any unfrequency of meetingHad she been different when I did see
her, I should have made no complaint, but from the very first she
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was altered: my first reception was so unlike what I had hoped, that
I had almost resolved on leaving London again directlyI need not
particulariseYou know the weak side of her character, and may
imagine the sentiments and expressions which were torturing me
She was in high spirits, and surrounded by those who were giving
all the support of their own bad sense to her too lively mindShe is a cold-hearted, vain woman, who has
married entirely from convenience, and though evidently unhappy
in her marriage, places
gucci horsebit hobo her disappointment not to faults of judgment,
or temper, or disproportion of age, but to her being, after all,
less affluent than many of her acquaintance, especially than her sister,
Lady Stornaway, and is the determined supporter of everything
mercenary and ambitious, provided it be only mercenary and ambitious
enoughI look upon her intimacy with those two sisters as the
greatest misfortune of her life and mineThey have been leading
her astray for yearsCould she be detached from them!—and sometimes
I do not despair of it, for the affection appears to me principally
on their sideThey are very fond of her; but I am sure she does
not love them as she loves youWhen I think of her great attachment
to you, indeed, and the whole of her judicious, upright conduct
as a sister, she appears a very different creature, capable of everything
noble, and I am ready to blame myself for a too harsh
construction of a playful mannerI cannot give her up, FannyShe
is the only woman in the world whom I could ever think of as a
wifeIf I did not believe that she had some regard for me, of course
I should not say this, but I do believe itI am convinced that she is
not without a decided preferenceI have no jealousy of any individual
It is the influence of the fashionable world altogether that I
am
tiffany co jewelry jealous